Recently, I have gotten quite a few feedback from my keyboard instructor and also colleagues on my confidence level. I'm at a stage where I doesn't want to meet new people, I just want be in my own world.
However, I can't be in this situation anymore. I need to make a change, I need to improve.
In the end, I applied for another job , besides my current job, which is event base. I have to force myself to get out of my comfort zone. Honestly, I'm aware of my own weakness. I don't take initiative unless other party initiates. For instance, we can be in the same course/class but I will never get to know you if you doesn't initiate. That's me, since poly days. I tried. Really.
Let see how it goes. Training on the 28th. ^-^
Into the 2nd week of the summer semester, I'm almost drained out. For this semester, it seems that I have lost my motivation to study. Unexplainable. Most probably, I'm affected by the rest of my friends having their semester break.
PS: I wanna get to know you better but I doesn't have the courage.
Dinner with Hwee Yuan Ytd! ♥
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Every family have their own story to tell. It may seems that my family looks happy and blissful. Well, not from my perspective.
I have always wondered why I am born in this family. I know I am considered to be lucky and blessed to have both parents around to bring me up in my 21 years. What makes me feel so strong in leaving this home is financial issues. Financial issues are always the main cause of unpeace in my home. Parents quarrel and have always mentioned that they wanna to get a divorce. Ever since primary school, same scenario, same lines happen over and over again. Therefore, I'm already immune and have gotten sick and tired of these situations I have to face. The topic on money is real sensitive in my family, and it is one of the reasons why I have always wanted to leave this home. This thought of mine may be selfish, but what will you do if you were in my shoes. Though my family is not poor , I would still consider as average. In order to lighten my parents' financial burden, I started taking up part time jobs to earn my own allowance, working after school and weekends since polytechnic. Who wants to spend all their weekends working the whole day when you have the choice not to work. I know I am old enough to pay for my own university tuition fees, besides that many of my friends are also working to pay for their own university fees. Deep in my heart, I really envy those friends that get their monthly allowance from their parents. The grass is always greener on the other side.haha. But still, I know what I should do. My mum does not want me to take on a bank loan with the continual accumulation of interest because she doesn't want be to be in debt for 20 years . Just because of my decision to get a degree, she is still working hard to pay part of my university fees with her hard-earned money. I'm truly grateful to my mum♥.
However, what makes me feel stronger in leaving is to have a parent constantly reminding you that what he has paid for you, you must in return take care of them when they are old. True enough, taking care of parents is the responsibility of the children. Just because your elderly relative are being abandon by their children, you think that my sis and I would do the same. I know my responsibility. You don't have to keep reminding me how much you have paid for my education or other miscellaneous. You will only make me detest you more. Always complaining that you have no money when you are always buying unnecessary things. Always making a fuss when you have no money. Always provoking quarrels with other family members. I know how tired my mum is everyday she comes back from work,so I'm studying hard to make her hard work worth it. You don't have to keep mentioning. You will only make me having the thought of giving up on getting a degree.
I'm really getting sick of this.
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That was fast!
Chinese New Year Ended. February over.
It's Marchhhh.
Somehow this semester have been so crazy with reports,assignments, essays, & frequent exams!
Though I have only 4 modules, it seems to be more heavy and burdensome.
Working, Studying, Working, Studying.
My life is evolving around exams and work.
However, I'm anticipating the upcoming keyboard lessons this following 3 months.
I believe it's gonna be a good de-stress session!
This semester I have made more friends.
Most importantly, I started to learn more true colours of different people.
It's just starting.
Not only that, the modules especially for interpersonal comm is quite interesting.
However, my weakness is the managing of the accents of my Ang Mo professors.
I also learn to open up more... and hope that taking up a new interest will aid in building my self-confidence.
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| Happy to hear from surrounding friends that I have slimmed down, but I still eat alot >. > |
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Finally it's 2014!
A new Year, A new Beginning.
May this year be a better year compared to 2013!
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| This somehow summarizes how I spent my 2013 ♥ 2013 has been quite a fulfilling & amazing yr for me. From graduation trip to Taiwan, graduating from poly to starting Uni life.. knowing new friends & catching up with sec & poly friends... Fun & enjoyable moments with Just Education colleagues (More than just Colleagues)... Memorable 20th birthday♥ The second half: Striving to achieve good academic standing in UB.. ...getting my korea proficiency grade 1.. Overall, I'm grateful for those that are always there to provide me a helping hand & encourages me to look on the brighter side♥ #grateful #love #31dec #2013#throwback #besties #birthday #work #JELC #memories |
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Juggling with both school and work are't that easy.
Normal school life is hectic enough, undergraduate life is totally crazed. The assignments are endless.
After completing one, the next assignment is waiting to be done.
My life revolves around assignments, journals, essays, reports, quizzes and exams. Every month end, I will DEFINITELY spend the whole night burning midnight oil, struggling to get all the info into my brain.That's not the way to study.I know.
Although the modules are pretty much interesting, I just can't do well for the exams.
Especially for psychology and sociology. As for ESL, it's my nightmare.
Normally, I will take only the most 2 hrs to write and essay. For ESL, I can take up the whole day.
And coincidentally , the submission of the essays always fall on the same day as my psychology exam.
That combination is JUST ....!!
Nov is the last month before I can finally take a break off morning classes.
♥My 1st clique in UB!♥
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I have already continuously worked for 2 weeks, no off days because I am taking up 2 jobs :3
Tired but at least I am occupied till the intake for UB~~
Applied for UB (SIM Global)..expensive fees but still I need a degree..with my GPA, there's no hope in getting into a local U.
Flying on 9 Apr!! Free from work :D Finally can relax after SIP & MYP (: I'm coming, Taiwan! hahaha~~
I want to go Korea again...So envy..cos Xuelin going korea tmr & also SS5 IN Seoul ^^
I want to see my oppas!! :DD
Nevermind I shall wait for SS5 IN Singapore (:
I will be back soon :DD
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Gonna go out later to visit my Grandma..Mum & Dad all working :'(
Spending my CNY eve at home preparing the PPT Slides..
Although exams are over!...
Staying at home to prepare for my MYP presentation on Wed... Last presentation in my poly life~~
Needa give my best shot but..
The thought of presenting in front of so many assessors is driving me crazy :3
Recent I m obsessed with the
Kdrama- 이웃집 꽃미남 (Flower boy next door) by Yoon Shi Yoon & Park Shin Hye..
**Highly Recommended**
Hahaha..when was the last time I enjoy watching all the dramas with having to worry about projects or Individual Journal ?
.....
Gonna prepare my script for the presentation, No cue cards..So I gotta know my facts at my finger tips.
3 more days...
♫ ♫ Lively Ryeowook singing ♫ ♫
보고싶다
아무리 기다려도 난 못가
바보처럼 울고 있는 너의 곁에
상처만 주는 나를 왜 모르고
기다리니 떠나가란 말야
보고싶다. 보고 싶다.
이런 내가 미워질만큼
울고 싶다. 네게 무릎 꿇고
모두 없던 일이 될수 있다면
~~~♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫~~~
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