以前听人家讲钱不是万能的，但是活了21年...我领悟到是钱是万能的。
钱是一个原因，伴侣是另外吵架的原因。女人找到对的伴侣非常的重要。虽然我会想遇到我的另外一半，可是想一想单身好像也不错。如果遇到的对象不会对钱斤斤计较，那还好。但是如果他是一个认为钱比什么都重要，那我宁可不要遇到他。
我心里期待的他是一个会包容我，会疼我，会理解我的人 。这世上还有这样的男人吗？虽然说人生如戏戏如人生，这世上偶像剧里的白马王子是不存在的。一切只能自我幻想，梦过就该醒了。老实说年纪越大，我对爱情也越来越不期待什么了，谈恋爱时时一个样，结婚后有时一个样。明知道会让自己失望，为何还要跳进这爱情的深渊。
单身就好。
L♥.
I admit I'm a work maniac. Working whenever I'm free: after sch, or weekends.
But I took leave yesterday.
铁人也有生病的时候。
The last time I fell sick was like ..last year?
Lucky that I gave my keyboard lesson a miss, or else I'll be singing off pitch. That would be so embarrassing.
Hopefully, I'll get back my voice before the presentation later on.
Mentioning about presentation, the group I was assigned to was really awesome. That's why I'm so stress to the extent of waking up at 2am yesterday to print the peer evaluation form, because I thought it was presentation day. I'm mad.
Back to my main focus of this post.
Previously, I have been casually asking around for people's 1st impression of me when they first met me.
Common answers: COLD . COOL . LOOKS DIFFICULT TO APPROACH.
However, that's not who I am.
If you get to know me well, I can laugh and talk openly to you.
I tend to get awkward easily. I don't take initiative because I have no guts.
Low confidence is my greatest weakness. However, I'm proud to say my strength that I'm independent.
One reason for my awkwardness is that my friends are mostly all girls.
I grew up snatching things and quarreling with my sister, while most of my friends have younger/ older brother. I want an older brother too.( That is still my wish now, I'm silly.) .
Like what my cousin says, " why you always go out with 查某? ". Haha. What do you want me to do?
I grew up snatching things and quarreling with my sister, while most of my friends have younger/ older brother. I want an older brother too.( That is still my wish now, I'm silly.) .
Like what my cousin says, " why you always go out with 查某? ". Haha. What do you want me to do?
Recently, I have been asked by different people (including my dad) so many times "No bf?"
The moment I step out of the lift, my neighbour was like "Dinner with BF?"
With my character & personalities, ... relationship seems to be out of question.
But I'm not those with high maintenance, haha.
Friends around me are getting into relationship, though sometimes I may admire them.
However, I 'm not in a rush. I will takes what it comes.Why rush.
What is most important to me is what I want in life.
Friends and colleagues will sometimes question me " Why are you working so hard? ".
That was what I was taught from young : Whatever you want to achieve, you have to figure it out yourself.
As long I do the right things, my parents will give me their support. Ever since Secondary sch, I have been on my own. My parents do not care about my grades anymore. They have the mindset that if you fail, that's your problem. If you want allowance, go find a job.
That's where I learn to be independent and discipline. And this type of education actually works on a lazy bum like me. After all, I'm still a human. I'll still get tired of SCH, WORK, LIFE. :D
Some parents at my workplace were like why are you so discipline, well-behaved.
= I grew up with my parents whipping me with canes whenever I didn't get a full mark for my spelling.
= I stayed up late at night to redo my Chinese writing (Or whatever you call that). I'm trained.
= I stayed up late at night to redo my Chinese writing (Or whatever you call that). I'm trained.
Strict MUM.
But, nowadays, most parents I met are too protective of their child. No matter what, it's other people's fault , their child is always correct. I'm glad my parents brought me up like this. I learn things the hard way but I'm certain of what I should do or not do.
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| Sis's Graduation. But I'm smiling the widest as if I was the one graduating. Haha. |
Shall turn in early today. The fever & sore throat is killing me. Anw, TGIF, & presentation day.
L♥.
I'm getting sick of COM 240, largely due to the format. Test, Presentation, Test, Presentation.
That makes my life terrible.
Went to see the AA today, it turns out well. Anyway, the earliest I could graduate will be in Sem 7.
So I was pondering over what I asked the AA. Should I take on an internship before the last sem? Since I'll still graduate early. But what I'm worry is about my remaining free electives. Am I able to get what I want.
Oh ya! By the way, I'm somehow happy with my Fall 2014 schedule. Initially, I dropped my COM 337 before the add & drop date. Aftermath, I spent the next few days regretting my decision. However, I managed to get a better timing as compared to my original class which is at 3.30pm. Who wants to go school at that timing >.<
So here's my timetable!
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| Initial~ |
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Quite clean eh. But, ... 4 days morning class. Still, it is better than the 3.30pm class which will totally mess up my work schedules. Though I'm in different class with most of my friends, I'm still looking forward to making new friends. And I also added Social Psy to the initially given 3 mods, it sounds interesting.
*** I need to get more "A"s for the following few semesters in order to get my distinctions.
NTS : I have 4 months left to decide on whether to take on a 3 mths internship.
L♥.
Last Saturday, I went for the Service Excellence Training at William Angliss Institute. Partially, I regretted why I applied for the event usher job alone instead of persuading my friends to go along. However, on the other hand, I felt that I have made a right decision because I stepped out of my comfort zone to conquer my fear. Through the training , I met people who came from different walks of life. The knowledge on providing quality customer service imparted was somehow much similar to what I have learnt in my diploma.3 years of studying Retail Management did helped me in someway. I would considered this training beneficial because sports hub paid for our training and we could get a certified WSQ certificate.However, there's still written & oral assessment before we can made through it.
Recently, I started doing some serious reflection. What I want to do in life. How the part time jobs I'm taking up will benefit me in anyway. When my music instructor questioned me on which career path I'm gonna take on after I get my degree, I could not give her a precise answer because I'm also uncertain of my goal in life....
I realized that I have been working hard. I'm really proud of myself. Ever since I'm 16 , I started working part time. I stopped relying on my parents for my monthly allowance when I'm 17. I learn to be independent since then and I work to pay for what I wanted. I don't buy branded stuffs, etc. Maybe that's why my parents allowed me to pursue what I have interest in, from learning language to music. Besides that, I have no curfew , I could go overseas with my friends during holiday. I'm really fortunate. Because of my situation, I have grown to be mature in my thoughts and actions. The parents at my working place are always saying that I'm sensible and hardworking, and how can I juggle between work and study. Believe me, you can handle them well if you have parents in their 50's still working hard to lessen your tuition fees burden. And yes, I have no social life. I work from morning to evening every weekends, and sometimes after school. But I still believe that few more years down the road, my life will be better than now. Not only that, one of my friend's situation is worrying. Besides Univ fees & Poly repayments, she had an additional house mortgage to pay. And she's of the same age as me. However, we are optimistic that our life will be better after we get through all these hardship. The hurdles in our life.
Another thought in mind was regarding to my FB status few days ago.
....
L♥.
Recently, I have gotten quite a few feedback from my keyboard instructor and also colleagues on my confidence level. I'm at a stage where I doesn't want to meet new people, I just want be in my own world.
However, I can't be in this situation anymore. I need to make a change, I need to improve.
In the end, I applied for another job , besides my current job, which is event base. I have to force myself to get out of my comfort zone. Honestly, I'm aware of my own weakness. I don't take initiative unless other party initiates. For instance, we can be in the same course/class but I will never get to know you if you doesn't initiate. That's me, since poly days. I tried. Really.
Let see how it goes. Training on the 28th. ^-^
Into the 2nd week of the summer semester, I'm almost drained out. For this semester, it seems that I have lost my motivation to study. Unexplainable. Most probably, I'm affected by the rest of my friends having their semester break.
PS: I wanna get to know you better but I doesn't have the courage.
Dinner with Hwee Yuan Ytd! ♥
L♥.
Every family have their own story to tell. It may seems that my family looks happy and blissful. Well, not from my perspective.
I have always wondered why I am born in this family. I know I am considered to be lucky and blessed to have both parents around to bring me up in my 21 years. What makes me feel so strong in leaving this home is financial issues. Financial issues are always the main cause of unpeace in my home. Parents quarrel and have always mentioned that they wanna to get a divorce. Ever since primary school, same scenario, same lines happen over and over again. Therefore, I'm already immune and have gotten sick and tired of these situations I have to face. The topic on money is real sensitive in my family, and it is one of the reasons why I have always wanted to leave this home. This thought of mine may be selfish, but what will you do if you were in my shoes. Though my family is not poor , I would still consider as average. In order to lighten my parents' financial burden, I started taking up part time jobs to earn my own allowance, working after school and weekends since polytechnic. Who wants to spend all their weekends working the whole day when you have the choice not to work. I know I am old enough to pay for my own university tuition fees, besides that many of my friends are also working to pay for their own university fees. Deep in my heart, I really envy those friends that get their monthly allowance from their parents. The grass is always greener on the other side.haha. But still, I know what I should do. My mum does not want me to take on a bank loan with the continual accumulation of interest because she doesn't want be to be in debt for 20 years . Just because of my decision to get a degree, she is still working hard to pay part of my university fees with her hard-earned money. I'm truly grateful to my mum♥.
However, what makes me feel stronger in leaving is to have a parent constantly reminding you that what he has paid for you, you must in return take care of them when they are old. True enough, taking care of parents is the responsibility of the children. Just because your elderly relative are being abandon by their children, you think that my sis and I would do the same. I know my responsibility. You don't have to keep reminding me how much you have paid for my education or other miscellaneous. You will only make me detest you more. Always complaining that you have no money when you are always buying unnecessary things. Always making a fuss when you have no money. Always provoking quarrels with other family members. I know how tired my mum is everyday she comes back from work,so I'm studying hard to make her hard work worth it. You don't have to keep mentioning. You will only make me having the thought of giving up on getting a degree.
I'm really getting sick of this.
L♥.
That was fast!
Chinese New Year Ended. February over.
It's Marchhhh.
Somehow this semester have been so crazy with reports,assignments, essays, & frequent exams!
Though I have only 4 modules, it seems to be more heavy and burdensome.
Working, Studying, Working, Studying.
My life is evolving around exams and work.
However, I'm anticipating the upcoming keyboard lessons this following 3 months.
I believe it's gonna be a good de-stress session!
This semester I have made more friends.
Most importantly, I started to learn more true colours of different people.
It's just starting.
Not only that, the modules especially for interpersonal comm is quite interesting.
However, my weakness is the managing of the accents of my Ang Mo professors.
I also learn to open up more... and hope that taking up a new interest will aid in building my self-confidence.
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| Happy to hear from surrounding friends that I have slimmed down, but I still eat alot >. > |
L♥.
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